missing everything.

CHEESY! but the song by Aerosmith: Don't Want To Miss A Thing....is the saddest song ever! I heard it today on the radio, Last time I heard it I was 3 months pregnant and I bawled my eyes out. It's ironic becase when I heard it when I was pregnant I didn't know I'd be giving my baby away. AND NOW I realized, wow, I'm really missing everything.  Every smile, Every cute little face. I'll miss his laughs, every "first". I remember last time I was with him alone (there's only been like 3 of those moments) anyways I was laying in bed with him and it was perfect. ahh I miss that. I miss him everyday. but oh well! life goes on...I'm still glad I gave him a better life.

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Where every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile, I don't wanna miss one kiss
I just wanna be with you, right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close, feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment for all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes, don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep
Yeah, I don't wanna miss a thing

Ah, mom's out there who kept you're babies....so pretty much all of you. (and have a loving husband even!) You probably already know this...and pardon my french but, You're FUCKING LUCKY! :)

love,
AL